In the last month I’ve made some big changes in my life so I thought I’d update you…
At the start of October I left my full time job and started a Creative Writing MA at Bath Spa University. Eeek! It was a huge, quite stressful decision to make but I’ve wanted to do the course since I graduated the first time around, over five years ago (that makes me feel old), but it never felt like the right time to apply and commit myself to it. I still don’t feel ready, but when my job wasn’t looking very stable or like there was going to be much opportunity to progress, I decided to go for it.
Creative writing is a passion of mine but it’s not something I’ve ever really shared with anyone; I’ve come out of the creative writing closet! So far it’s been incredibly daunting, not only having others read my work, but critique it in front of me.
The imposter syndrome kicked in on day one when I realised that everyone has either studied creative writing at undergraduate level or been writing for years and already has a strong body of work. More than anything, I consider myself a reader, an avid bookworm that seeks comfort in escaping reality in the pages of a story. I’ve dabbled in trying to write my own fictional pieces but no where near enough yet to call myself a writer…and that’s just the quantity, as for the quality, I have a long way to go. But I’m certainly on the right course to learn the ropes of being an author. The MA has a fantastic reputation and many authors I admire have completed it so I’m in good hands. Plus, I like to think that I must have a glimmer of writerly potential to have been accepted onto the course – that’s what I keep telling myself when my confidence ebbs and I wonder what I’m doing!
Held at Corsham Court in a stunning sixteenth century house set in parkland designed by Capability Brown with roaming peacocks, it’s an inspiring place to study. Everyone is really friendly and it’s refreshing to meet people who are just as passionate about writing as I am, and understand how difficult it can be.
I’ve already learnt so much in the first few weeks, but there is a scary amount of work to come so I’m just taking it one day at a time. I miss my colleagues and the change in routine has thrown me off track a bit but I’m gradually getting used to studying again. It’s going to be a hard, but hopefully very rewarding, year.
Bring on the next chapter!